This is one of the most important things I’ll ever share with you. It makes me feel vulnerable and I’ll admit, nervous to do this. But the feeling that I must share is stronger than my fear of being laughed at or ridiculed. So here it goes…
Are you awake? Two months ago I wasn’t ‘awake’. But then to my shock (it was pretty dramatic) one day I ‘woke up’ and I had a full blown Kundalini, or Spiritual, Awakening.
I’ve hinted at the onset of a intense life change over a few blogs and Facebook posts now – but I was waiting for the right time to share my Awakening with you, I’m not sure if this is the right time or if there will ever be a right time, so I’ll just have to trust that this time is now. First, if you are like me, who up until a few weeks ago, didn’t know what the heck a Spiritual Awakening was, here is an explanation, please feel free to add more details in comments as I’m sure many of you will know more than me:
What is a Spiritual or Kundalini Awakening?
I think it can be different for every person but one interpretation (that is also mine) is that it is when an individual recognises their ‘soul’ self – that they exist beyond their physical form as an immortal soul. Many awakened individuals ‘know’ that they lived many lives before and will continue to live many more lives, either in the physical form or as a spirit being transcending to higher realms or dimensions, depending on what lessons still need to be learnt (FYI a fascinating post to come soon on the scientific verification of reincarnation!). A spiritual awakening is not a religious phenomenon – spirituality isn’t confined to a specific religion.
What happens in a Spiritual Awakening?
There are some interesting descriptions of a Kundalini Awakening involving a feeling of previously coiled energy shooting up and down the spine, shaking, laughing, crying, sensations of heat or cold, plus the onset of physical experiences that transcend the usual five senses that we humans have – including clear-seeing and developed intuitive abilities. For some the onset may be gradual, for others it may be rapid and dramatic, for me it was intense, rapid and very dramatic.
What Happened to me: My Hands Forced it upon me!
I couldn’t make this story up if I tried: can you believe that my awakening started at a crystal workshop for kids?! I took Hana to one for her birthday celebration, it was our precious time together as we both find crystals soooo pretty and we wanted to know more about their healing properties.
After being asked to sense the energy fields of a crystal by raising our hands over them, I felt a sudden pain in the centre of both of my palms. Right in the palm chakra – although I didn’t know this as I had no idea really, what a chakra was OR that there was one in my hands. Once I’d felt the energy radiating into the palms of my hands – the pain wouldn’t stop. In fact the sensation in my hands got more and more intense over the next 36 hours so much so that coming into contact with high-vibrancy things like coffee and turmeric caused so much pain I had to put them down. When it got super intense I had a feeling that something was ‘pouring out’ of my hands that I couldn’t control. I felt an urge to discharge it somehow, to relieve the pain, but I seriously did not have a clue how or why the hell this was happening to me. Can you imagine how confused and shocked I was? Nevertheless I was curious to find out more.
Up until that point in time I believed in the existence of course of ‘energy’ but not I did not believe that intelligent energetic life forms could exist separate to our bodies. I had made myself at peace with the concept of my consciousness being annihilated at the point of my death. I was not spiritual nor a seeker of spirituality. (But, might I sneak in, I was highly principled and I was quite content with my beliefs). However the pain and nagging sensation in my hands was so strong I simply COULD NOT ignore it. I found myself having to violently flap my hands around when the charge built up to cope with the pain! I looked like a total weirdo. It even continued into my dreams at night and the feeling of ‘charge’ would build up so much it would wake me up. I had no choice to look into ways to control these sensations and so became (OK, I’ll admit, reluctantly) aware that a ‘bigger’ picture may well exist beyond my physical body. I had been wrong. Wrong. Wrong again! I began to look for someone to teach me.
The Kundalini Awakening
A few days later, after finding an Energy Tutor and starting some exercises in ‘energy’ or ‘energy work,’I felt a powerful urge to meditate. By the way, traditionally, Nurse Naomi DOES NOT meditate: she runs, she swims or cycles. Or writes. She DOES NOT meditate. This has now changed – but the urge that day to do this meditation was so strong that I rushed home after school drop off to do it. For an hour I meditated but I had intense seizure-like shaking that with hindsight, I can now see fully actualised the awakening. Every time I thought the shaking had petered out and would stop, another wave would overtake me. I was a bit annoyed by it as I felt it was stopping me from going really deep into meditation.
During the meditation and intense shaking I was aware that there was a being with me – I sensed that they were concerned that I would be concerned by the shaking. I felt this presence in my mind but also as a burning sensation on my right hand, radiating up my arm. During that meditation I truly let go of my prior belief system, so there is more than this…! I had been so sure there wasn’t… I asked ‘the universe’ to show me what I needed to know. You guys all know that I’ve been letting go of the ‘old me’ over the past two years as I’ve been forced to re-evaluate everything I thought I knew. Well this was the last step – I don’t really feel there is much of the old me left… At the end of the meditation I felt terribly sad and I found myself in floods of tears. It had taken so much suffering for me to get to this point! For all that darkness to have been what I had needed to ‘wake up’, why? I found myself asking this being that was with me, why does it have to be so hard? There was no response but a feeling of pained empathy.
After that meditation I was extremely cold for a few hours even though it was a hot summer’s day and the air con was off, I sat wrapped in a blanket. I felt smashed and drained, like I’d been hit by a truck, my whole understanding – of everything – had been turned upside down. But then something amazing happened!
Within a 24 hour period a tremendous sense of peace rained down on me. I’ve told you that peace was beginning to find me in Can you ever be at Peace while your Child Suffers? – but after this day, the peace that found me was more powerful than anything I could have previously imagined or dreamed of!
So what does this have to do with it?
This Spiritual Awakening has transformed not only my belief system but has also transformed my entire understanding of what I am and what I doing here.
I don’t believe it was a coincidence that the work of Dr Brian Weiss was introduced to me that very week. This is a U.S based, prestigious psychiatrist who was forced to confront his prior agnostic belief system when he found that under hypnosis his patient went back into past lives with incredible details and access to information (about him) they simply couldn’t have known. This led to his own ‘awakening’ and since then he has written many books on Past Life Regression Hypnosis and I URGE you to read his work – it has blown my mind in ways I thought it would never go. LISTEN TO WHAT PEOPLE ARE SAYING! I simply cannot ignore what thousands and thousands of people have told Dr Weiss under hypnosis and I have embraced their stories and his insight to the spiritual dimension as truth – for me, their truths resonate deep within.
What I love about this Spirituality is that it knows no boundaries – there is no ‘right way’ or ‘wrong way’ to achieve spiritual purity – there is no reason it cannot embrace all religious perspectives for it perceives that the end result of all our soul journeys is supposed to be simply LOVE. No doctrine, no dogma, no complicated theory…just love.
Reiki/ Hands on Energy Healer
My hands led me to my awakening, without the intense pain I felt with the activated hand chakras I wouldn’t be sitting here writing the blog post I wouldn’t have ever imagined writing Not. In. My. Wildest. Dreams. It was kind of a no-brainer that I felt I needed to train to become a reiki energy healer, which I have started…
So there will be another blog post on that soon. Becoming a Reiki Healer, and I hope, Reiki Master one day, isn’t an end though, it’s another part of my journey as I continue to Unlearn all that I’ve Learnt. I’m so honoured that you are sharing this with me. Thank you! Thank you for reading and for sharing – if you feel compelled. And please get in touch and share your own experiences and thoughts – whether you feel you are ‘awake’ or not it doesn’t matter! I want to hear from you all xx