When Hana woke up from her surgery with a damaged brain my first thought and only instruction to myself was “FIX IT. And don’t rest until you do.”
You know the story. I spent 2.5 years trying to FIX IT – I was prepared to fight to fix it until the day I died. And yes, I’ve made huge advances, the journey continues at full throttle to this very day. But. But. But…
I’ve learnt something so valuable along the way, – you saw it beginning to unfold in “Love yourself and that includes your cancer” and also in “Can a parent ever be at peace while their child suffers,” – you already know this, some of you saw it coming, the crucial role of peace and acceptance in it all. But as you will see below – peace and acceptance was just the beginning of a radical transformation of worldview and the beginning of the most important realisation I, and ANYONE could ever make and it is to do with: Accepting Responsibility for your own Reality – acknowledging The Power of Thought.
‘I will never be at peace,’ I told myself, ‘How could I ever be at peace while my child suffers? How could I ever accept less than a total cure for her condition? Maybe others could accept a lesser life – but not me. I will never accept this life for my child. I don’t want peace. Stuff peace.’
And then, that crucial moment came, when two years later after her tumour returned when she roared to the sky, ‘I WISH I didn’t have a brain tumour!’ and it all clicked into place:
I was stopping her from healing.
By fighting to cure her condition I was preventing her from truly healing – from within. What my war was telling her was this: You are not cured. You are sick. Your state of wellness isn’t acceptable to me. You are in the constant state of needing healing. You are in the constant state of needing a cure.
Whilst my quest to change things must continue (and still unfolds in miraculous ways…more on that down below), my resistance to her condition and fight to FIX IT needed to end. This was our life, we needed to accept it, embrace it and love it AND TAKE RESPONSIBILITY for it, or else…or else there was simply no point in being here. We weren’t victims.
And I realised then that I’d been looking for health, well-being and POWER for my daughter in the wrong place – at least in the wrong starting place. I was starting outwards – hoping that by a desperate battle to rectify her physical damage I’d then re-empower her inwards. If I could ‘FIX IT’ and make it all go away, she’d be powerful again, in and out.
It took me over two years to realise that although my efforts to heal her physically are necessary, successful and must continue, I needed to change my starting point – working from the inside out: my daughter’s sense of wellness – Power – had to come from within.
Finding Power Within
Once I changed my starting point to healing Hana, our combined sense of power came flooding through the house like a torrent. Hana re-found her power once I introduced her to the concept of mind/thought/beliefs having the ability to change things – for real:
I told her that her thoughts were powerful and could change her world around her. That you can get what you want by focused thought and ultimately will it into existence with gratitude and intention. This is the ‘Law of Attraction’ as described in The Secret, this is reality as described by Bruce Lipton in ‘The Biology of Belief’, this is the Power of Thought as outlined by James Allen in “As man Thinketh.”
Even though she believed every word – it was hard for her to initially integrate this idea, a little girl beset with chronic , debilitating pain! So I bought her a journal to write her wishes in and to record the things she was grateful for. She would write things like: I’m so grateful my ankles and headaches are getting better, even though they had both made her cry with pain earlier that day. Her ankles featured a lot during those early entries.
Then, once that self-belief, wishes and gratitude were expelled into the universe, it slowly began to gift her back. Her ankles were ‘gifted’ with a new pain relieving tool, a random, electric-pen I’d accidentally seen on TV whilst sitting in the Orthodontists chair: the Pain Erazor (no coincidences, I haven’t watched TV in 6 years). The pain erazor delivers an electric shock to relieve pain. Because I am very interested in the development and future of Electro-ceuticals I got one to trial. Days later the pain in Hana’s ankles had reduced by 80% and she came running out of school beaming – refusing another ‘hit’ with pen because she had no pain. One week later she asked to go running with me one morning. She can now stand and walk for HOURS at a time when only a few weeks back, it was only minutes that she could bear.
The Law of Attraction
The teachers of ‘The Secret’ maintain that if you ask the universe for something, believing that you have it now, with gratitude, it delivers it to you. After Hana started writing about her headaches going away (remember how bad these were a while back? So bad she was thinking about dying) we tried the most effective homeopathic remedy for her post op eyebrow pain – Hypericum in a whopping 50M dose. After a few days of exacerbation, she had her first ‘good’ week in two months. After her second dose two weeks later her eyebrow sensitivity and pain had disappeared.
She still gets headaches and her ankles still hurt sometimes – but over a matter of a few weeks her overall wellbeing is so crushingly beautiful to witness. The only word I can choose to illustrate this is ‘transformed.’ And I believe it is no coincidence that we started utilising positivity and harnessed the Power of our Thoughts before this began to manifest.
And therein lies the sense of ‘Power’: the realisation that YOU can bring something about through YOUR will, YOUR thoughts and intention. And it is incredible that the more you see this manifest, the stronger it becomes and the sense of Power that unfolds within you is unshakable.
“Your thoughts become your biology” – Caroline Myss
“As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.” – Proverbs 23:7
The Power of Belief
I have just finished a phenomenal three day course to become a Theta Healing Practitioner, this incredible healing modality facilities instantaneous, miraculous healings via a connection to the Source (God/Creator), it utilises extra-sensory perception in conjunction with the foundational belief: What you are thinking, becomes your reality (This is so so SO huge guys, I’m drafting a blog post on it with details, watch out for it).
This concept, of taking responsibility for our thoughts because they dutifully then create life as you know it, is completely ancient, yet it seems so many of us have forgotten that we are all creators of the realities that we live in. We are not victims: I do believe that there is an element to how our lives unfold that relates to decisions made in a higher dimension than here – i.e life events seen as necessary for spiritual development. In this case, Hana’s tumour and seemingly catastrophic fallout may be aspects we had decided would be necessary to help us realise our full potential here in this life time. It worked.
And before you think that I may be jumping the gun on how Hana feels about it all, if you asked her today if she loves her life she would tell you “Yes, a lot.” Would you change anything about your life? “No, nothing.” And it is my intention that she carry this beautiful certainly about how her fantastic, incredible life is unfolding with her to adulthood. Because her life is fantastic. And it IS incredible. And the reality we have created takes my breath away…
It is known in medicine that patients who know they are sick can allow the development of the ‘Sick Role’ where due to their maladies they ‘allow’ for an unexpected element deterioration in their state of wellness – ultimately because they permit it, or expect it or feel it is expected of them! The teachers of the “Secret” maintain that the more you focus on, talk and think about an illness the ‘more real/entrenched it becomes.’ Theta Healers will not speak of the NOW in a negative way, instead we will say ‘up until this point in time…’ thus allowing for only positive predictions for NOW and what we see as after NOW (although of course, there is only ever the NOW).
Taking this on board I completely stopped discussing Hana’s health as it if was ‘compromised’ but focused on exclaiming my gratitude at how well she was doing, even when, at the beginning, the improved wellbeing was a dream away. Even if she wasn’t around and someone would ask me how she was, I’d simply say ‘she’s doing really well’ then I’d allow myself to feel gratitude for that wellness.
And it began to happen.
If you like, you could believe that up until NOW major life circumstances have been attracted or willed into existence by intelligence and intentions of a higher dimension for a purpose, here, in physical embodied form. But are you ready to then accept that the unfolding nature of the universe we currently inhabit lies directly related to how we ‘think’ it? So, so many of us are here now to remember that our power lies within the realms of our thought and intention and we are here to relinquish our ‘victim mentality,’ harnessing our creatorship skills in this lifetime.
Have a think…Are you one of them?
Massive journey guys, and it just keeps getting more massive and more amazing the more I open my mind and learn or ‘unlearn’.
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